Why is it so difficult to spend time on creativity?
Lately, I have been thinking a lot about why it is has been so hard to write and create. I have so many thoughts bubbling around in my head. I have these really big story ideas and I probably have the rough skeleton outline for 3-4 books.
So, why can’t I just sit down to write them and get them out of my head? Why do I tend to freeze whenever I get a few moments to focus on my writing? Why is procrastination or getting distracted with things that are not important so much easier than doing the thing that makes me happy?
For the last few years, I have been listening to self-help books and podcasts and youtube videos. Over and over again, I have heard about something called a “limiting belief.” The idea behind a limiting belief is that it is a belief engrained inside of us, that is holding us back. It’s those small negative thoughts that either society or our lived experience or our early care takers have taught us through either their words or their actions.
For me, it’s something like: Creative work isn’t worth anything because you won’t/can’t make money doing it. Creative work is selfish and indulgent. You should be spending time and energy on something that will either make money or be of service to someone else. Creative work is “hard,” it’s easier to not do it. You aren’t good at this creative thing. Why bother?
Do these sound familiar to you? Do you have any limiting beliefs? What does your internal dialogue sound like?
At this point, I’m trying to make myself aware of these limiting beliefs. I think the next step is trying to overcome them or rewrite them. To be honest, I am struggling with this step. These mental grooves are so well-worn, my brain already knows the steps to take to get me through to the part where I do not write or do anything creative. How do I overcome these ideas that I have been carrying around for my entire life?
I’m not sure. But, I do believe that creating and writing will continue to be difficult for me until I can overcome these limiting beliefs.